Today I am four years clean and sober. I wont write a long drawn-out post with multiple paragraphs, ill keep it short and simple. Today life is better than it ever has been for me. ... In order for me to get clean and sober I had to hit a bottom, a low bottom, one full of despair. When I hit that bottom I wanted to change, and thats when the light bulb came on. Thats exactly what I had to do, change. The drugs and alcohol were only a symptom of my madness. I was in fact the problem. If i didnt change me, my behaviors would just continue. So 4 years ago I made an effort to change. I am continuing to change ever day, as each day i make it a goal to do a little better than the day before. Staying clean and sober is not hard for me today. I am in love with the life I have and I dont want to do anything to jeopardize that. Today I have people who love me, and who I love. Life hasnt been all peaches and cream, ive had my ups and downs, but one thing thats remains strong is my recovery. I know that if i stick to recovery that life will only get better and better.